Why I decided not to go greek just two days before getting initiated...and after going through pure hell.....
In no way could I totally recap what kind of B.S. and pure hell my life has been, in a sensible fashion that would be time efficient and readable...so here is basically what happened to me and my reasoning behind it. I have been Pledge Class President for what seems like an eternity....all just to turn over the reigns at the last second....
my room mate went and bought me beer at the service station last night for hell week....he put it in my trunk.....I was driving home and then a cop pulled me over....He asked me if I minded if he searched my car and I told him yes because there was no reason to. He said I know you have beer in your trunk, so let me see your ID...I gave my ID and he was like you are under 21 and I know you have beer in your trunk...open it up...and so I did....and he was like well I got to search the rest of the car for probably cause...and it turns out I had a beer bottle in the back seat cup holder that had maybe like 2 ounces of beer in it and he said wow...under age with alchool plus you have an open container while driving...so I took the Breathalizer tests which of course came out negative and then I had to sit in the car for like 30 minutes and that is when I called you and then he got my car towed and I rode with him down town and I had to fill out a bunch of paper work....the result...$200 to get my car out of impound, $500 fine for open container, and court date for the possesion under age.....
Let me give you some background that I have never, ever been in trouble with the law before and that, and so this is totally out of the norm for me...in no way am I a terrible kid or ever will be....but this is kind of like my synopsis of the whole event....someone asked me if I was going to bet there tonight and this was my response:
I'm afraid not.....I still owe the frat $714.98 and I need to save all the money I can....plus I have finance at 8am tomorrow morning and it is our last chapter to lecture plus review, and then we have our huge test
conceptbass03: Thursday and I'm behind in that class so even if I did go through with Hell week they wouldn't let me be able to put in the time I need to, to be able to pass the class with an acceptable grade...plus the time writing that I fucked up I am making up Wednesday morning....
plus I have a 20 chapter final in Int. Business Friday and I have to study for that....I've been relatively studying for most of these things to the best of my ability, but as we all know teachers never give out review sheets till two days before the test. People will call me a pussy, faggot, ass clown, quiter, and the list goes on and on.. but The people that know me will remember what I stood for and what I believed in.....
but I came to the realization today that it is a dog eat dog world out there and that I can do one or the other but I can't do both...I can either pound it out and get good grades and try to mend things with my parrents, or I can get a D in finance and throw my entire GPA off for the rest of my college career and then effect my chances of getting into grad school or med school...Kyle more than...3/4's of my college career is over...next semester I will have to start studying for either the GMAT or the MCAT and all of this became a rude awakening to me because I realized that I am behind and that I keep thinking that I have 3 years left but in a all actuality my college career is coming to a fast ending.
and then all of a sudden I had an even greater epiphonal moment.......what have I accomplished within this semester.....granted I have made probably 10 friends that are really awesome...including you.....I think everything happens for a reason Kyle and though this whole thing sucks....just the chance to meet and work with you was an honarable feet in itself....I also must realize that 50% of people that do not have a steady girl friend by the time they graduate college do not end up geting married for atleast 6-10 more years......and while to some guys that may be a relief...I'm not one of them...because the natural tendency is for me to focus to much on work and not go out and meet a ton of people so once I get my career I am going to be in a dire situation if that person isn't there.....
and do you know what really sucks....I kind of had to get a reality check to realize this.....I mean, it took getting half-arrested and me having to suffer a great deal to realize what I need to be looking at....
It sucks that it had to happen this way....all the older brothers said they had so much hope in me and they knew I was the leader they needed....but I guess things change and so do people....ultimatley....I feel like I have let some people down....but at the same time...I feel like I'm pressing on...cause going back to where I was would just be wrong....I'm pressing on...