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Published on September 16, 2005 By Joshua Price In Life Journals
Remeber the article I wrote about rejection and being replaced. I knew it would come eventually....it was only a matter of time....but it was that time that was so hard for me to accept. The official date is the 15th day of September, in the year of 2005. What I am listening to is Reliant K:

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.


Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.


I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.


Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.

Comments
on Sep 16, 2005
Nice writtings. Very inspirational to say the least.

Btw: I used to be really good friends with Brian Pittman...I have no idea where he is these days, I hear he quit the band, but I remember going all over Canton to see them. My aunt had Matt Theissen in grade school..hehe..
on Sep 20, 2005
I'm confused -- do you mean on that day in september she started going out with someone else? if so, grr. girls can be so shallow, and I am one. well, maybe not a shallow one but we all have our moments! Anyways, I like relient k alot. they're awesome. Also, I don't know if you like them or not, but when I read the first few lines... about september etc... just made me think of the Green Day song, Wake Me When September Ends. Because that would be how I felt if I was in the same sitch.