The breaking of a relationship and compromising morals
Saturday was one of the most peculiar days that I have encountered in quite a while. Besides having to work from 7:45-5:15, in one night my girl friend at the time had decided to break up, I went out to the seafood festival with a bunch of people that I barely knew, and then defy all morals that I have about going to clubs.
Well, the breaking of relations with the girl friend was mutual between us. In fact, I could say that I could have seen it coming from afar just because that we have too many differences. I want to do one thing with my life and go to high places but I don't think that we weren't moving in the same dirrection. I mean over the past few weeks I have been thinking that why should two people pursue something that can't happen?? For now we shall remain friends, but I don't think we'll get back together.
The seafood festival in my opinion was highly overrated. I was charged thirteen dollars for a plate of alligator tail that wasn't even really alligator. I was quite perturbed and I wanted to give the plate back to her and ask for a refund. But about the group I was with. A very attractive girl that is in my science class up at school asked me if I wanted to go out to the seafood festival saturday night with some of her friends and I was like ok, sounds good to me. For a profile for her, she has grown up in church most of her life and seems to be a really strong chirstian and even went to a private school for some of her life. We have a lot in common with family and things that have happened to us. In fact, from my observations she seems to be pretty smart but in the big scheme of things we have only been friends for a short while and I will definatley have to get to know her better. Well, once we got there we had to wait for a bunch of her friends that were all late which didn't really bother me until my knees starting hurting from standing to long. But I made do with the situation, smiled, and pressed on with our little adventure. By nature I am an individual that has a very high regard for art and experiencing culture so it was my assumption that we were going to go around and look at the vendor stands. Evidently my assumption was wrong. Nobody really had an care to go look at any of the booths at all and so I was kinda disapointed but since I was the guest in the group I hid my feelings and pressed on to our cars to leave with a smile on my face because I was happy to be able to spend time with this lovely young lady.
The next part of the evening was quite shocking. Because of the events in the past I have an extreme hate for night clubs because they represent everything that is trash in mainstream society. There is only one reason why people go there and so it makes it very easy to go to one of these joints, make a wrong decision, and end up screwed over with a sexually transmited disease or being jumped by a bunch of horomonce raging monkeys. Ever since these events I casted an oath with myself that I would never inhabit these putrid places again. Well, last night I broak that oath. Common to popular belief, I did not break this oath because of peer pressure or the desire to be the life of the party, but more of upon the thought process that life revolves around a motion that is balanced. Since it had been quite a while since I have gone to these places, I went and to tell you the truth, in purest human nature I had a really fun time because I got to dance with the young lady from my science class and also with one of her friends for a little bit. In contrast though, something inside of me was telling me that it was wrong and it was not till I started dancing with her friend that I came to this realization. Don't get me wrong, I really did enjoy hanging out with these people but the whole reason that I am disciplined, have good morals, hold myself in high standards, and my faith is the very same reason that I don't go to these places. Anyways, we left on a good note with the girl from my science class giving me a big hug.
Now, this part really impressed me and I think it is shocking in general. This morning (Sunday), the girl from my science class called me around eight right when I was waking up to appologize to me and say that she was sorry for dragging me to the swamp and that she and her friend woke up this morning feeling really bad about what they had done and that what they had done had compromised her morals completely and that she hoped that I wasn't mad at her!! How huge is that?!? How often is it that you find a girl that looks really good, is smart, and is not stuck up, calling you and apologizing about her actions?!? That scored major brownie points on my list because it shows that she has the ability to be able to recollect upon her actions and discern wether or not what she did was right or wrong, and make a change. But in general I just want to say that I was very impressed. So hopefully this is a start of a friendship that may have potential to turn into something better. My sincerist wish for two years has been to find a girlfriend that is a strong christian, can hold each other accountable, and that is actually in the same socio-economical class as myself and to look really good. Who knows what could happen?? I also realized that I have one of the most reliable and caring friends in the world. No matter what Kristen is always there for me and will always answer her phone when ever I call whehter it be seven in the morning or until the wee hours of the night. It was even more apparent this weekend cause when ever I needed someone to talk to or a trusted opinion, she was always there!! A friend like her is truely priceless.....
Besides all this drama stuff that has happened this weekend, I had something happen that was the highlight of the entire span. I have been considering leaving my current position at West Marine as Inventory manager for a job as a waiter that would gross me more money in the winter times when we traditionally cut back on hours at the store. What has stopped me is the management experience that I am getting from the job that is going to look stellar on my resume after college and plus all the benefits they are paying me. But today I had the owner of Blue Sky Data Management Inc. offer me a job as director of marketing and public relations in his company!! I was so syched up that I wanted to litterally explode!! I told him that I would want to discuss it of course with my folks. So we are meeting for lunch after class on tuesday!!
On a closing note, even though I think that with the breaking of my personal oath may have tainted my image, I realize that I have messed up and it is proof that even people with the strongest values, like myself, can sometimes stumble in there walk. One of my favorite quotes of all times on the subject of morals is by Aristotle, "The moral virtues, then, are produced in us neither by nature nor against nature. Nature, indeed, prepares in us the ground for their reception, but their complete formation is the product of habit."
Best Wishes, Joshua Price