How often is it that you would find someone like myself up at 1:15am??? Almost never, unless I am suckered into by some means. I am a person that likes to get to bed early and rise early so that I can take care of business in the morning and then play in the afternoon but tonight I am having late night anxiety and I just feel like venting and being really straight foward with myself.
I was pondering upon a random subject the other day and I came up with one of the many true deffinitions of love and this is how it goes: When you truely fall in love, all of the partners imperfections turn into the very objects that make them attractive in your own eyes. I think this is a candid statement that needs to be taken into consideration by almost all couples. Often times imperfections get in the way of many otherwise succesful relationships.
It was then today that I came onto a devine inspirational moment that has caused me to question my very own judgement about relationships, because to this day I struggle with accepting other peoples imperfections, neverless my own. Day after day I try to take inventory and then push myself to be a better person and I struggle to discern all the things that are a hinderance to me being a better person because those very characteristics bother me. Now, if I can not come to justification with my own perfections daily then how can I even nullify someone eles that I think I feel compasion for??!? This is a very troublesome toppic to me because from my definition above I am unable to accept my own actions let alone somebody elses.
On a final note, I have had two sources come up to me and question my current position. These are infact very reliable sources with the utmost creditablility and I do indeed take them into consideration but they have not shaken me off my "podeom" so to say, yet and my feelings stay very true to where I stand.
Once again I want to reiterate that I still stand strong by my current commitments and investments with my emotions and my word (which is about the best promise I've found you can get now-a-days) and nothing has wavered me from the prize. Some may speculate that it is more than coincidence that two different sources said this but I draw the conclusion at this time that they are totally random.
Best wishes, Joshua Price