an inquisition to the common three
Work was a blast today! This was the first time in about a month or so that we have been entirely busy with people comming in and buying a ton of stuff. I alone sold five thousand dollars by myself with no item being more than four hundred dollars, which is quite an accomplishment in my eyes! The only problem is that now that fall is starting to set in all my close friends have gone off to school. Last year it was really bad because all of them went off to big universities and all of a sudden my ex-gf dumped me and I had absolutely no one left to turn to as a friend or even for support that was my age. So, I went through a period of about four months where I had nothing to do except go to school, work, and the gym, which gave me a large amount of time to study for school and concentrate on church but it was one of the most lonely times in my life.
Now that I am at the same time, same place, as last year I am still burdened with friends departure but I am not totally alone. I have someone now to spend quality time with which has been really awesome so far but we have hit a wall that we need to climb over. Its not something that is directly caused by one of our own transgressions, but more of what someone else has done. Ever since that one girl died that was on her soccer team she has become quite somber in all of her actions from what I can tell with the time that we have spent communicating. Before, she was always very peppy and had tons to talk about but now she has almost nothing to say on the phone and I am struggling to hold a conversation with her, which by the way should not be a problem for someone like me. Before, we could talk on the phone for hours on end but now we struggle for even a five minute conversation. One of the main reasons I was attracted to her was because of she had one of the best communication skills of a women that I have ever met.
But I do not blame her for her feelings because obviously when someone who you are somewhat close with dies then you should feel some type of sadness or something, but for me personally I have an entire different view on death that is contrary to most people. It may sound strange but death does not sadden me anymore. Its not because of the violent shows on Television or because of the horrible video games that are out today, but more of because of my faith in the Lord and because of my optimisim.
When ever my grandmother died a few years back whom I was very close with, it shaked our entire family but to me I was not sad because I knew in my heart that for those that deserve it according to God's judgement, there is such a place that is far more wonderful beyound this pain ladden world. I mean I appreciate the world that God has created a lot and I enjoy my time here to the fullest, but I know that after I die I'm going to a place where there is absolutely no sadness, disease, sickness, or any other thing that could bring us down. Which leads to my opinion about death. From the moment that we come to this earth we know that there is a beginning and end in this human life but I know that there is a loving Father that is there looking down on us who has a plan. To me I can't understand the way that the gf mourns peoples death because to me death is nothing but a transition like I spoke of above. Also, I think that she does not have the passion for God like I do in my heart either which I am trying to work on.
On a side note people ask me all the time why I am smilling all the time and I kinda just keep on smilling say I don't know but, the other day I came to the realization that it is what I have in my heart that makes me smile all the time and be optomistic. I mean I can't even explain it very well but I guess what I am trying to say is that because of my relationship with Christ, I am able to go through life with a lot less problems than I was before and I think you can see it reflect in the joy of my actions.
But on a closing note, I just can't see how people can be down all the time about stuff like death and sickness. Life to me is a transition or a system of climing steps and if you continually drag yourself down with cumbersome objects then you will not be able to climb or move in life. All steps have an end somewhere. Some maybe higher for some and yet shorter than others, but I know that my Father has a plan regardless. "Ask and Ye shall reciece." All I ask for is that people smile more often and this world would be a much better place.
Best wishes, Joshua Price
Proverbs 3:6 "In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths."