From one of my classes I have found that Human Dynamics is probably one of my favorite new things to study. In particular I especially like the areas of negotions, conflicts, and interactions. I guess the reason that I like it so much is that I dislike having to deal with it. Personally within the past few days I have had the pleasure of dealing with "deciding actions" and decisive actions. How do you know when you have gone far enough? How do you know if you've gone too far, to the point of breaking something permanetley? There are sometimes when ever I wish I had the ability to see the future just so I could see the exact amount of what to do. Then the response is that when ever you do that you take all the fun out of life. If you consider ruining relationships, or wrecking a car, or losing a loved ones life because of a risky decision fun, then I guess you could look at it that way. But then fate also comes into that question and lack there of. Does the actions that occur on a daily basis have some redeeming value for someone besides me, because all it seems that I can do is ruin things.
It is kind of funny the way that society portrays a good person. This person is quick in there decision making, but yet they get condemned if they make the wrong one. Yet, if they are indecisive because they are trying to way the consequences then people lable them as lazy or ill-prepaired. What is even better is the contrast between people and actions. In society today their is so much diversification between ethnic, social, and moral backgrounds that it is very hard to quantify something as the "norm". But yet people continually have false assumptions about the way people are going to act and then get mad when ever this something doesn't happen! They use common fraises like, "you are supposed to know that!" or "Everyone knows that!" maybe "That is just the way that I have grown up" or how about "Why can't you just be normal!" One thing that I heard recently from a movie really kind of describes this situation:
"Janice, I apologize to you if I don't seem real eager to jump into a forced awkward intimate situation that people like to call dating. I don't like the feeling. You're sitting there, you're wondering do I have food on my face, am I eating, am I talking too much, are they talking enough, am I interested I'm not really interested, should I play like I'm interested but I'm not that interested but I think she might be interested but do I want to be interested but now she's not interested? So all of the sudden I'm getting, I'm starting to get interested... And when am I supposed to kiss her? Do I have to wait for the door cause then it's awkward, it's like well goodnight. Do you do like that ass-out hug? Where you like, you hug each other like this and your ass sticks out cause you're trying not to get too close or do you just go right in and kiss them on the lips or don't kiss them at all? It's very difficult trying to read the situation. And all the while you're just really wondering are we gonna get hopped up enough to make some bad decisions? Perhaps play a little game called "just the tip". Just for a second, just to see how it feels. Or, ouch, ouch you're on my hair."
I guess right now my feelings are just that I am tired of all of this type of social problems. I wish that we could as humans focus on the bennefit of others and to stop being so........well I can't even think of the proper term, maybe immature?.....I'll get back to that latter. It use to be that if someone needed a helping hand everybody would jump to help them. It use to be people would always say hello or smile when you walk by. I think that we have made life so hectic and time sensitive that we run over all the small things that really give color to all of life. I admit that I am guilty also. But now that I am at school and I don't really have anything to worry about except for school, I am getting a picture of what all I rushed through in my attempt to press onward in the journey of life. I saw something that someone wrote that was really neat. They said that their biggest fear was leaving this world without it being a better place. My main goal I guess is to be able to touch atleast one persons life in some way that bennefits them.
Until next time, Josh